My Angel
A different kind of an angel that came into my life in fact it comes to
everyone. The angel in my life got nothing supernatural power yet so powerful
and unique from others. She not only let see this world but tremendously
altered my life. The environment that my Angel was living in olden days was in dimmed
house and her services were completely pure from her effort. There wasn’t any advance
technologies to accelerate and make it uncompleted of her loaded works. She got
help from her partner and sometimes from her parents. Her nights were spent on
a thin layer of carpet on a hard wooden floor and thin slice of blanket to loveliest
son to his parents wrap up us. Her palm filled with red blisters pat over my
head. As I lay beneath her arm she warms my fragile
body. Some years later when I turned 5 years old, her partner, my dad and
loveliest son to his parents was no longer supportive to her. Due to his illness and he was bed ridden for
almost a year and he was in the verge of losing his breath forever. He was
trying his best to communicate and gesture to cheer. His dream was to hug each
of us but his effort was in vain and pain.
Those moments are
agonizing and melancholic memories to me, to my angel and other siblings. She
was completely broken and in despair and occasionally she forgot to breast feed
our youngest brother who was just a year ago. Her days were like a rainy days
as salty tears and sweats drop endlessly. Not knowing how to start a day, no
answers for the queries that other people have. She wished to cease her all activities
and sleep until her pains get over. But she got no choice, four of us were
there not knowing how to console her rather complaining and fighting each other
over small cause. At least three eldest sisters were better than us. With their
aid the funerals and rituals were over effectively. Heartbroken angel was now
backbone of our family. Although she couldn’t send my three elder sisters to school
because they were her helping hand but she did for four of us. She put her all
efforts and earn some amount to fulfill our needs and wants. Regardless of
thorny days, harsh weather and cruel environment she focus on her work from
dawn to dusk.
Occasionally,
the flash back of that moment lingers in her mind; the moments when she yells
for a help, sobbing out loud, moving the cold body to and fro and health
workers were helpless. Even the medicine worth of millions dollars have not
wake him up from his eternal sleep. Nevertheless, as time heals everything the
period of worst phase disappearing slowly. Now, with each passing day, he
worries and stress amplified. Though, she was in pain and tired extremely, we
didn’t notice a bit. She was constantly working, constantly standing, and no
breaks. She hides her grief from us thinking that we might hurt us by her
feelings. She gathers all her energy to work harder and saved even a little
amount for us. She tried every possible route to produce money. She never let
us down; accomplished needs and wants of all seven of us. She understood
everything just by gazing at our face. Moreover, she has to run an errand for
my 80 years old grandpa and 75 years old grandma. They are now like a child. They always have
something to comment on whatever she does. But I am not blaming them because it’s
a nature of our life. At some point we will be the same. I understand them
fully. So, my dear angel, my Mom doesn’t lose faith and hope. I know how much
you have suffered and how much you endure it so far. I completely understand
you, like the way you used to do.
And please hold
on to the fact that someday your daughter will brighten your life and take you
out of sam-sa-ra. I am sorry that I am
of no use when you needed me the most. I rather increases burden for you. I can
only be sorry mom. I wanted to thank you each and every morning and before
going to bed. But due to distance between us and numerous complications I
cannot thank you. Even then I always thank you in my heart. You know, I would
say that you have a degree in finance, medicine, and arts because I am amaze
how you manage finance and cure our diseases when we were ill. Amaze to the way
you makes our life so beautiful without any colorful paints and drawings. You
showed us how to love, care believes and to smile to the world that we can do
it. That’s why you are angel of my heart. I promise and I believe that there
won’t be a mother like her in this world. I won’t be able to find one like her
even in my next life. The courageous and loveliest mother I ever saw. Oh! God
you gifted me the greatest mother who played a role of my father as well as her
role and tranquility flourished in my family.
